I looked at Baby photos today and it Hurt

Today I looked through baby photos - the first few months of  my journey into motherhood. I do this every now and then, hoping that one day it might be easier. That I will have healed something, somehow and connected with that maternal joy I was meant to feel during that time. I hope that one …

We took our Son to get his Haircut

We took our son to get his haircut. He is 4 years old and hasn't been to the hairdresser for a long time. For the past 2 years he has been growing his hair out "like Dad" because he wanted to be like his Dad. We went through all the stages of hair growth; that …

The most unrealistic episode of OUTLANDER ever.

I love Outlander. I'm currently re-watching season 1. I say its on as background noise while I study but that's simply not true. I'm watching it. I'm getting all angsty about what Frank is going through after Claire dissapears. I'm getting all flustered about Jamie and Claires blossoming romance and I'm getting a bit stressed …

Dear Son, We are moving house.

Dear Son, We are moving house. In the 9 years since you were born, you and I have shared 13 different addresses. We have lived with family, friends and on our own and every time we have moved, I have watched your expression change from disappointment to acceptance as you put on a brave face …

Today I’m going back on my Anti-Depressants

I weaned myself off anti-depressants about 18 months ago. After six years, I wanted to see if I was able to manage my depression naturally. I was in a safe and happy place in my life and trusted that I would have all of the support I needed to help me on that journey. I …